So I guess pain does = gain

So this year has given me a chance to grow. I don't like that my loved ones have been in pain but it has been these moments that have changed me forever.

One thought I've had lately is about what it means to mourn with those who mourn and comfort those that need comfort. All it took was to hear the nervousness in his voice or see a tear in his eyes and my arms were wrapped around Lee. I knew love was all I had to offer at so many points recently.

After completing the antibiotics for his double ear infections, Bryson continued to cough and wake himself up. This normally happy baby spent so much of the night screaming. I grabbed a pillow and blanket to sleep in the room down the hall on the floor next to a baby who hurt.

After finding out Bryson had pneumonia, Braxton started to show similar symptoms. I didn't have the lap for it but found myself somehow rocking two boys who only wanted to be held. One night Braxton complained about the hurt he was feeling. I had laid him in bed and it was very late. He begged me to sleep by him for a while and I did. That night I couldn't have left for my bed without knowing he went to sleep in a peaceful way.

I thought about all these things and about conversations I've had with family members this past week. All have a common feeling behind them. I don't want anyone to hurt and I especially don't want anyone to hurt alone. Whether it's our bodies or our hearts no one should have to be the only one bearing the burden. Everyone needs the comfort that only love can bring.

I am blessed to know of the greatest source of pure love, Jesus Christ. It is Him I rely on for comfort. It is He that helps bears my burdens. This knowledge and testimony has changed my life forever. Even in my trials, I am able to be thankful because of the goodness of God and his son. I know that my life is full and I am blessed in so many ways!